Friday, September 21, 2012

I heart holidays

Hello Friday afternoon

I am about to go and do the school run and pick up my three lovely boys from school before we commence our September Spring school holidays.Yay!! to that!!

It is a welcome change to see it overcast and the sprinkling of the random shower or two. It is just telling us to take it slow and unwind. The rain smells devine and Miss Lucia is enJOYing walking outside in the rain with her new polka dot umbrella - polka dots are just the bees knees and sing happy don't they? :)

I adore school holidays - whether we have a 'stay'cation or an actual pack the bags holiday, I just love the mode of togetherness.

We are choosing to have a stay cation this break as we went on our road trip to Townsville for our Winter break.  We have many friends and family we want to catch up with to visit and be visited, day trips to enjoy, gardening planned and cooking to delight in.  We want to swim, ride bikes, play soccer, bask in sunshine, take a drive, have a picnic, listen to great music and indulge our togetherness and

Note - Love is patience
(Really a self mental note - 2 weeks with all the kids home I may need to remember this at random moments throughout my day over the coming weeks)

Happy Holidays and happy togetherness x

Monday, August 20, 2012

These are a few of my favourite things

Thought I would take a moment to reflect on some things I enjoy ..............

Music & singing loudly in the car (even better when the kids join in)
Photos (although sometimes I am so in the moment, I forget to pull the camera out..I'm working on this one)
Beautiful cookbooks or rather books of any kind. Actual paper, texture, photography, fonts - words
new kitchenware of any kind (recent purchases are a new mix master and some lovely bowls)
fresh flowers
Architecture & design
D&M conversations - I love heart to hearts, take these any day over small talk, yes!
Gift buying - I love to be savvy, stick to a budget and purchase gifts for my loved ones that I know they will enjoy. I don't like to buy if I feel I am obligated to.
Chunky silver jewellery
Fresh clean foods
Wearing perfume daily
Watching movies or TV shows that inspire  - true test, Do I get goosebumps? 
A view and a breeze
Exercising.. learning what my body is capable of and testing it that little bit more each time
Brown paper packages tied up with string (yes, I adore packaging)

 - these are a few of my favourite things

Of course I realise that a lot of these things are of material value, I relish in the attention to detail and the appreciation of surrounding myself with things that I love and the pure enjoyment of learning what you like and dislike. We have so many choices flashed before our eyes and ears daily -it is up to us to filter all of this, and learn what we really like - all in the discovery of knowing who we really are, giving ourselves permission to change and evolve and doing what we love.

When we truly identify these details, we start to become our self.

Drink in your details and enjoy


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Winter Wonderland

Life is busy, yes?
Even when times are quiet (a version quite different from my single days)  and in transition, life is busy with four kids and a hubby at home and all that that involves.

Lately I have been feeling a little unsettled. This usually happens around this time of year and usually I find there are changes that come around my birthday in September.  I'm not sure exactly why, but my history shows this is the way. Time for tweaking and seeing what fruit will blossom.

Soccer season is drawing to an end, so with three boys, three training sessions and three games that are nearing the end of season,  this will free up a substantial block of time and I am looking forward to the next chapter and having our weekends back for a while.

I have been making a conscious effort lately to really play with the kids. Really play and be present. Not an easy task when there are so many distractions. So simple and so rewarding. Hide and seek - the look on Miss Lulu's face when she finds me is just priceless and chasey is the best exercise and often leaves me breathless. All our kids really want is US and shared time together. A good thing for me to remember.

It has been quite chilly in our neck of the woods lately,  down to -1!!!  The days have been full of clear blue skies and quite magnificent and once the morning warms up, it has been delightful to soak up some sun. Perfect weather to take a day road trip on a Sunday or enjoy a picnic. We've been spending a lot of time at various skate parks, bmxing and scooter trails.

I love lapping up the seasons. We have a garden of trees and I love the deciduous ones that really capture Winter and allow the sun to peak through.

Although there is no snow to be seen, and I can often be seen in thongs, I love jumpers, scarves, stockings and boots, throw rugs on the couch, stews and casseroles for dinner. It definitely is a season of comfort.

One thing that hubby and I have been indulging in of late is eBay. Yes, I know, we are extremely slow at starting this buying and selling market. I've looked before but have never been inspired to purchase until now. This week we have vintage suitcases and vintage scout belts being delivered. There's is something wonderful about purchases on line and receiving the parcels by post. I have been a long time customer of on-line stores, especially groceries and The convenience for busy lives and the joy of mail other than bills - Win/Win!!!   Long live Australia Post!

I am loving all things vintage.  This month I have purchased some funky cutlery, some 1920's style heels and a typewriter.  I was thrilled to learn you can still buy the ribbons for them. This is something that truly inspires my love of print, my love of fonts and my love of words. I'm thinking homemade cards and gift tags.

Currently we are facing hospitals.  My Mum has just come out of hospital after a three week stay and my Mother in-law is currently in with back surgery taking place and my Father in-law recovering from major surgery.  I am constantly being reminded on our health, our fitness and looking after ourselves. Never to be underestimated in my books or taken for granted, EVER!!

Today I am thankful for the days of sunshine, my little girl's constant conversation and budding personality, 12month leases, lemon water, vitamins, my boys enthusiasm for their soccer, being Australian, inspired watching the Olympics, London 2012, my husband's health slowly improving and medical services in our lucky country -

YES, we are blessed.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Thankful Tuesday

Right now I am appreciating the simple pleasures, entertainment on a budget and drinking in the details....

So here are 10 things I am loving right now ~

1. red lipstick
2. scarves
3. my Converse ( keep my tootsies warm now the weather is cooling down)
4. hot cups of tea
5. The clear blue skies of Autumn
6. Blanket throws to snuggle on the couch
7. Lucia's wearing leg warmers to her first dance class this morning (I want a pair!)
8. Time spent with girlfriends, who 'get' me.
9. My love who told me I looked pretty this morning.
10. Writing with my Kikki K pen

They may be simplistic but these are the things that are often the best and the things I am savouring today.

What are you thankful for?

Have a happy day

Friday, May 18, 2012

Let the truth be known

It is no secret that our little family has been doing it tough.  It hasn't just been a season, it has been a series of life changing events that has created our challenging times for several years now.

Although I try to remain positive, and mostly I am, see the beauty in things, thankful for my blessings and am extremely savvy, living on an extremely tight budget for our family of six....
I hold my head up high and am thankful for the good and the lessons.

There is a flip side to this story.

I have heard it several times now, that some people don't share their difficulties and challenges with me as it would seem so insignificant to what we face, that I am strong, invincible and capable of holding so much on my shoulders.

I am strong. I don't over react. I am logical ...Yes!

I am not a Super Woman - I do not own a cape!

Let the truth be known ~

Because of all these events I am very good at prioritising, don't make mountains out of ant mounds and try not to sweat the small stuff but it can also be so isolating as no one can relate, young families should be in their prime, yeah? People do not see that often I am just treading water, and often feel like I am drowning. I am divided into so many pieces with other people's needs that there isn't much left.  It takes a lot of my energy just to stay afloat, let alone swim a lap.

There are only a select few that I can be completely open with and share our challenges, to be raw ~ the ones who haven't stopped asking how we really are.

These kindred spirits touch my heart. They may never have walked in my shoes but can reflect on their own feelings and experiences of survival, solitude, anguish and joys and have an understanding, that I feel I connect with the most.  The ones who touch base when they know sometimes it's hard for me to breathe let alone do the daily basics or whatever life throws at us.

 I thank them for being such a wonderful ear and as Dr Phil often says, " A soft place to fall."

This Mumma Bear wears many hats ~ some I have chosen and many I have not. I am constantly trying to coordinate them the best way I can and I don't truly think one understands this until you have children of your own and have faced some challenging - really challenging situations.


I always hope we are making baby steps forward - sometimes I don't know.
What I do know is that we are sticking together, embracing our truths on such a raw and exposed level and doing the best with what we have.

Sometimes I find it hard to breathe, sometimes the responsibilities are too much to comprehend and sometimes I just want to escape, if only for a little while.

To be happy and sunny is not a destination but a journey.  I know my life constantly tests me on my beliefs, my faith and my standards.  It tests me - to be myself.

No one is invincible.  We all have different breaking points and different levels of triumphs.

We all have feelings, the need to love and be loved, a need to belong and connect.
A need to be truly accepted as we are, for whom we are, with where we are at.

Sometimes we can be doing ok, really ok and something happens and it can tip us over and we need to start again from the ground up and lay new foundations.

It is in times like these, I pull the people closest to me closer, I become quiet, reflect, adapt, adjust and make changes. I am currently in these times.

When I gain enough strength, I adjust my sails to the wind and steer in the direction to ride the wave.

Life is mostly froth and bubble,
Two things stand like stone,
Kindness in an other's trouble,
Courage in your own.
~Adam Lindsay Gordon

So I the words of Bob Marley ~

Don't worry about a thing.......
Cause every little thing gonna be alright...

Peace X

Friday, May 11, 2012


As I sit on my porch, grasping a moment, a peaceful moment of bliss

vino in one hand, and cupping my head in the other ~

I reflect ~ My day, my dreams, my hopes.

It appears anything is possible when I am one with this magnificant backdrop of the most equisite colours and devine brush strokes of an everchanging painting ~ often taking my breath away, the sunset.

This view calms my spirit, quietens my mind and touches my heart.

Simply amazing,

Taking time to 'smell the roses' and seeing the beauty that surrounds me,


Monday, May 7, 2012

You are my sunshine

Today I received a text that said several things but the one thing that stuck with me was the bit that said," Hopefully the sunshine you always talk of will inspire you to change your perspective....."

This has really got me thinking. 

What? Change my perspective to conform to YOUR thinking?

I am a cup half full kind of person.  I do believe in finding the beauty around you, and despite what you face in your life, beauty is to be found.  I profoundly believe in Sunny Mummy and all that the Sisterhood represents. Like-minded women supporting women, to be the best they can be, a gentle reminder to look after their children's mother and keep your face to the sun (no matter what storms appear).  This is an online community that I have had the privilege of meeting several Sunny Mummy's in real life and am proud to call several of them my friends.  Although I have lived my life by similar morals and values my entire life, I wholeheartedly support the ever evolving, very honest, Stacey Sullaphen, for envisaging and creating Sunny Mummy. Stace, to you, xxoo

By being positive, choosing to be happy, finding, owning and claiming my peace, my joy and my hope and 'marching to my own drummer' is being me.  Sometimes I am boisterous, but often quiet. Consistent, practical, logical and responsible. I can be fun, playful and creative. Serious, committed and loyal. Loving, affectionate and kind. I am me and I know how I tick.

To be positive, or 'sunny' does not entail I need to change my perspective.  I do not need to change my disposition nor do I need to be muted or ignore my feelings to conform. To be positive is to keep your eyes open, be tuned into your heart and listen to your gut. Often it means not being all rosy and rainbows but living completely by your truths and not being transient. Knowing there is always a lesson to learn, an opportunity to grow and blossom.

To be yourself, to be kind and to be real - this is my truth.

I am not perfect. I am forever evolving and learning. I am wary(learning from my life's lessons) and have learnt to surround myself with real, positive people. By being real, there are definite times when things aren't rosy.....when we are challenged with health and financial issues, and we are tested time and time again.  These times test our faith, test our love for each other and reveal people's intentions or agendas. We can during these times, learn a lot about ourselves, really put our beliefs to the test. I choose to jump back up, dust myself off, tweak things a little and move forward. Through all this - I try and stay positive, see the beauty and take the challenge on, head-on, to learn and grow. Don't get me wrong, I can still grow weary, get deflated, lose hope(temporarily) and get hurt, then I move on.

By being sunny, this does not mean I need to accept everything that comes my way. By being true - is also finding your voice and standing for what you believe, eliminating the negative, working hard not to enter into gossip or simply being mean. We all have choices, and I believe our behaviours, our words and our body language reflect our hearts.   I choose not to get revengeful, bitter or angry. Pissed off, for sure, I own these feeling, truly feel them, then move forward.

We all have elements in our lives that we love and parts that we do not. We have choices and we are free to disagree or do things differently. We make mistakes which we can learn from.  This is our own life and at the end of the day,  in the quiet of the night, our alone time... we are but with ourselves, then at the end of our days....I believe when we meet our maker and we answer for the path that we have lead, we face the decisions we have made, the love that we have shared ~we take ownership for our own entire life, thoughts, actions and our intentions. We cannot possibly be experts in all elements of each others' lives nor can we predict our own future and all that that entails.

The more I listen to my heart, the more in tune I am with my feelings, my health, my body and the love that I am willing to share.  I choose where to invest my time and energy so I don't rob my family of myself and is fruitful.  As I get older, I have less tolerance for negativity, self righteousness, facades, bitchiness, stupidity and gossip, the blame game or the hard done by story line. I am not interested in trivial issues - I am interested in the REAL issues, the heart issues. We all have a story, Joys and heartaches, triumphs and defeat. It's easy to point the finger and say, 'If only...', it's often harder to look at oneself and take ownership.

Forgiveness is the key. To forgive may not be ,to accept but rather not to carry another's burdens around on our own shoulders. To set ourselves free, to learn and not become bitter or revengeful.  The more we find and live our truth, the more often we are challenged. It would be easy to lie down and often surrender but I choose to be consistent, own my truth, be open to learn and live by love. I may not be there for all of the celebrations of life...but I can assure you, I am here for the big stuff, the 3am call in the middle of the night, the midnight dash to the hospital, to dress your wounds, to walk and talk with you through your panic attack, hold you when you are crying - to listen and to care. I can be found when there is no one else around and you are facing the real, challenging moments.

When I had my first born son, at the time, surrounding me was such adversity, yet I held this beautiful boy in my arms and often found myself admiring his features and mannerisms, singing, 'You are my Sunshine, my only Sunshine....You make me happy when skies are grey........' I was holding this most precious life.

To be 'Sunny' is not always being agreeable, it's not waiting for the clouds to's taking the here and now, drinking in the details, the people, the ambiance and having a thankful heart and mind. It's standing up for what you believe in, protecting the people closest to you and being real. It's not striving for having more, but being grateful for the blessings that surround us. It's keeping the vision in our eyes.

Don't be afraid to be yourself - even when judgment is rampant. 

Shine, baby shine!!

p.s.  and if the sun isn't shining, put on your gumboots and jump in some puddles.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

The grass is only greener if you water it.

As a Mum of four children, I am always sharing my time and affection.  Sometimes it feels that I am living a live autopsy, always sharing myself and divided. I make a conscious decision to not always focus on the squeaky wheel needs the most oil syndrome especially when my children all have distinct different personalities and different needs. I don't want the quiet personality to miss out because the extrovert is having a rant. All their different needs based on their ages, likes and dislikes are a constant juggling act in the main arena.

It would seem although we live a blessed life, I would not consider my children to be spoilt at all, yet there is a mentality I am observing, an expectation of all needs being met especially materialistically immediately.  Their life of comfort which I have worked hard on achieving, always being there, being a hand up, a constant ear and providing their needs as they appear has also brought, along with what I notice in society, a lack of patience, a sense of entitlement and wanting everything instantly.

We all need balance. We all need patience.

On the other side of the coin, I observe them to be kind, loving individuals who know who they are and what they like. They have an eye for detail and are hungry to learn. They have been exposed to things, I never would have imagined, and they have all taken it in their stride. They are compassionate, affectionate and full of spark. I love and adore each of them.

So how do we find this balance? In our busy lives, full of activities,  events, availability of takeaway, shops always open, replacing things instantly when they are worn out or replacing as the new upgraded version has arrived. In this instant world of sms's, emails, internet shopping, new fads.....when is enough, enough? What are we teaching our kids?  Even if we don't enter into it ALL directly, it surrounds us constantly.

Although I see these wonderful qualities in my children which I had always envisaged and hoped for, I am seeing elements of today's society rubbing off on them that I don't enjoy.

The last few days I have been challenged immensely and it is in these times when I question things.

I dream of a life in the country, away from the hustle and bustle tending to my abundant vegetable patch which provides wholesome seasonal food for my family each day.  I need to tame my thoughts and create the life I want for now. I may not live in the country but I can work on nurturing my little vege patch and learning what I can about propagation both with gardening and with my little family, tending to their needs and desires as well as weeding out the unwanted vermon and weeds. We all need a little fertiliser, taming and pruning. As with everything, it is seasonal. We all need a little free ranging with safe boundries.  I am earning my green thumbs in more ways than one.

With the last few days of my children challenging my patience and sanity, I know that I can wake up tomorrow, and all this becomes the past. I could blame it on the rain, being indoors or a potential full moon or......etc but I don't want to empower this behaviour and attitudes or excuse it. I say own it, learn from it and move forward.

Continually learning, I will tweak my household and even add a dimension of bootcamp if necessary, whilst I continue to tend to my garden with love and commitment. I will keep you up to date and let you know what changes I make.

Happy gardening Mumma Bears


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Honey, I'm home.

 Hi there, long time no see ;)

For quite some time now, I have pondered and questioned whether to continue with this blog. I questioned why I started it and what I wanted to achieve from it.

I wanted my intention to be good, wholesome and a genuine state of sharing.  I believe I did this but wasn't sure on how much I wanted to share.

I see and read so many blogs and needed to assess when is too much sharing, showing off.  I also needed to reflect that for the last 18 months I have been having issues with my eldest son's father regarding visitation ~ after 10 years of things working relatively peaceful. I am not going to allow this issue to mute me anymore nor am I going dwell on it. This is my one and precious life and I am going to live it!!

Writing is something I love. I write to reflect and question things. I journal irregularly for my eyes only and I am involved with a Circle Journal with an inspiring bunch of women. I still feel hungry to write more and learn from other like minded individuals.

I am extremely open and I share my heart. I write and share my thoughts on Facebook friends and am often asked how I am so positive, especially whilst faced with challenging times. I love to inspire and be inspired. I don't pretend to have it all together, nor do I stand on a pedestal where I may waver in the breeze. I adore quotes and I choose to shine......

so I shall write and I shall share.

I am real ~ I am Kate, me myself and I.
I am a Mumma Bear, Wife, Daughter, Sister and Friend.

Beauty in the little things, an advocate for what I believe in and constantly hungry to learn and discover is what inspires me and feeds my soul.

Rediscovering my creative side, I am painting again, learning to write poetry, studying, decorating my home on a budget, cooking, gardening, dabbling in photography, travelling, looking after my health and my family and more. Who knows where this will lead but I am jumping aboard this roller coaster ride, and going to play, Yee haa!!!

If this is of interest to you, I hope you join me on my journey of enjoying and discovering old and new. I am not an expert, I am learning along the way and I would love to learn from YOU too.
We all have our great days and some days are hard. With every experience we learn and to me that's cool. To grow and continue to blossom.

Let's rock this world and shine on Baby!

Honey, I am home.